I know most people don't agree with my life and living situation right now. I mean I am living in one of the most judgmental, closed-minded areas of this country. Even though the things I could tell you about some of those judgey wholier-than-thou people would make your toes curl. And not in the good way. I understand the curiosity. I know that when something is different from the norm it makes people uncomfortable. And I honestly welcome the questions to me rather than going behind my back. I just honestly feel really lucky. I feel like I have the best two guys that I could ask for to have my back.
Jared is a wonderful, fantastic father. We are choosing to live together still because neither one of us can imagine being away from our kids. I don't feel like it is fair to make him an every other weekend dad. I mean I don't even want my kids gone for the weekend, so I can't imagine how much the thought of him only having them on the weekends hurts him. Our marriage status is no one else's business. Whether we are married, divorced, whether we have filed already or not. Honestly, it is just a piece of paper. And does anyone else know unless we tell them? No they don't. He is my best friend, and everyone knows how crazy he is. He keeps me laughing. We have such a warped sense of humor that most people would just shrug and blink at. On the days I am sad and down, he keeps me in good spirits. We are there for each other and still have a bond. He is and always will be my family, despite any situation.
Stacy is a sweet, thoughtful, and caring guy. He just knows when I need something. He has memorized my routines and knows what I want without me having to ask. He still works the travel team and has been gone the last two months, and I miss him so much. I feel like part of me is with him. He is super serious though. Sometimes gets a little moody. But we balance each other out in that aspect by cheering each other up. He loves my kids unconditionally. Like they are his too. My kids are so lucky to have everyone caring for and crazy about them.
They both have my back, and neither one of them would hesitate to help me when I need it. I am very lucky to have such great friends there for me. Encouraging me and motivating me. I know some people aren't so lucky. I need them both in different ways, and they both understand this. I am glad we all get along and are friends who help each other out. It may be weird to other people. But it makes sense to us and my kids. I'm still not sure what the future holds, but I am sure I will see soon enough. I know by now not to plan or rule anything out. Life is a crazy roller coaster ride.
