My Life is Built On Happy Accidents!: It's Been Awhile

Wow. Time flies. It has been a couple of months since I have blogged. I have had so much going on in my life. Here is a quick update.
The kids are great. Such sweet, smart, giving, kiddos. They are wanting to help people in need right now and asking a lot of questions about people who need help. We are still struggling a little with Jackson's grades, but we have made some great improvements. He has brought his reading grade up from a 68 to an 82. He is so musically inclined. He watched someone play a song on the piano and went back and played it on his own correctly by ear, so we need to get him into some kind of music lessons, hopefully at the beginning of the year. Emma is still the same sweet Emma. She cares so much about other people and has such a tender heart. She tries to be strong when something hurts her feelings, exactly how I am, and I have to reassure her that it is okay to cry. She is still doing well in school, some of the math has taken her a little while to catch on to, but she is still making As and Bs and is still in GT enjoying it so much. Livia is my little spunky ball of energy. She is brilliant. Already recognizes her numbers, letters, shapes, and colors at two. She is good at everything she does, dancing, singing, sports. It's amazing. They are missing Stacy's kids a lot. And they don't understand why they can't see them. I try to explain the best I can in nice terms. But it's hard for me to understand how someone could be so evil and manipulative and keep their kids away from a father who loves them, and would do anything for them. He is amazing with my kids and loves them like they are his own, and I know that helps him, because they adore him. But I can still see the hurt in his eyes and the void that is missing by not being able to see his own kids. It breaks my heart to see him cry over them. What an evil, cruel, cold person you have to be to cause that kind of pain in another person.
Stacy and I are doing great. I know he is my soul mate. He makes me feel so loved and yes even beautiful. We are planning our life together. I am very excited. I just wish things weren't so hard and that so many people and things weren't against us. It just feels unfair and like he isn't even being given a chance at times. But that's okay. We will prove them wrong. Sometimes I wish we could just pack up the kids and run away together. Leave this area. But of course that's not possible. We have to stay here and fight for his rights to see his kids. I love and miss them so much too. I don't think it's fair that she is somehow able to keep them from him, even though they have joint custody, and the stupid decree says it's as agreed upon on the visitation, That it is just because she hates me so much for some reason. Is it because I love him and don't treat him as a possession? Because I don't need things my way and actually compromise with him on issues and don't feel the need to throw a fit to get my way? Is it because to me he is worth more than money, and I actually make him feel like he has a home so he is fighting to stay with me? Because we have so much in common and actually have fun together? That I know a relationship isn't all about me, and I do a lot for him too? Because his kids love me too? I just don't understand. I would want my childrens' father to end up with someone who loves my kids and treats them with respect. I would think everyone would want that as well. Kids need two parents who love and care about them. By denying them their father, and making them feel like he doesn't love and care about them will only hurt them in the long run. Does she not see this? Does she not know the hurt and unwanted feelings that will cause? Has she not researched the effects of this? Because I have, and they aren't good. I don't see how someone can keep getting by with doing things so wrong all the time, and never have to be punished for it. How someone can claim to be a Christian, but have so much hate in their heart. That is definitely not going to get you to Heaven, no matter how much you go to church.We have a lawyer, so I guess only time will tell. I just wish we could rush the process along a bit. Waiting and not knowing how things will end up drive me crazy.
Jared and I have been separated for over a year now. Things are great between us. We get along better than ever. He is such a great friend and an even better daddy. I am so lucky and blessed to have his help in raising our babies. Because I know no matter what life throws at us, we will always have each others backs. We grew up together. We have been each others family for so many years. And we are choosing to continue raising our kids together despite being divorced. Have even been praised by lawyers and therapists for working together for our kids. I just wish more people could understand this. Our children understand the situation. They will ALWAYS come first. They know we will always do what is best for them. No one else's opinions matter. Right now we are one big weird happy family. Don't judge us until you can be here and see how smoothly this works.
Anyway, I have a lot going on, and a lot of rants and things that have been driving me crazy lately, and this blog was originally going to be a rant blog, but ended up this way. Because when everything else seems to be falling apart, these are the people who keep me together. Who keep me sane and smiling at the end of the day. So I feel blessed. And to the people who judge, I feel sorry for you. Because I have a lot of love in my life. Three wonderful kids, two bonus kids I can't wait to see again, my soulmate who would do anything for me, and a best friend who happens to be the father of my children. I am pretty dang lucky. And if you have nothing better to do than judge another's happiness, you must not have enough good in your life. And that makes me sad for you. I will save my rants for another day, as I am going to end this day snuggling with my sweet babies, and goofing off with two pretty awesome guys. :-)