Can't Please Everyone

     You know what really bothers me? Judgmental, hypocritical people. Small-minded and ignorant people. Why is it so hard to let someone live their own life without always having to butt in? Don't like something someone does? Then don't do it!!!
     I have lived my life always worrying about what other people thought of me. I always did what everyone else wanted of me. I got good grades, I was a pretty good kid, I was the good girl. I am a perfectionist, and it drives me crazy sometimes, because you can't please everyone. I am one of those people who wants everyone to like me. It drives me crazy when someone doesn't. But you can never make everyone happy.
      If you choose one thing over another, someone is going to be upset with you. Some examples of me personally, I am different than other people. I am not part of the herd in my ways of thinking, but since I don't want to upset anyone or cause controversy, I rarely ever speak up. I have a hard time telling people no. In a way, I let people run all over me, and take and put up with way more than I should.
      I like tattoos and piercings, I want them, but I have some people in my life who judge people based on how they look. Like if I have a lip or nose piercing and a few tattoos that can be covered by clothes then that automatically makes me a bad person? Really?! I am going to automatically get stupid and become a bad mother because I changed the way I look? Maybe I have a good reason for wanting the tattoos. Maybe I have scars on my body that are painful to look at, and when I look down I want to see something that makes me smile. Only a few people know certain things about me, and they get this. They love and accept me no matter what. The rest of the world I keep my true self hidden from.
     And it really bothers me when someone tells me they are going to pray for me because of certain actions. I don't mind prayer for my well being, peace of mind, etc, but praying because you think I am a sinner, or praying for me to change, I am not okay with that. Are you, the person praying, perfect yourself? Have you never made a mistake? Do you not swear or lie or cheat? Because I know you do. Have you never done something that someone else didn't like? Why can't you accept and love me for who I am? Certain things I do or change about me don't make me a bad person, and those things won't send me to hell despite you insisting so.
      I finished getting my education degree, despite realizing three years in that I wanted to be a nurse. I was urged to finish it. So I delayed my nursing career for another year. If I had quit right then and switched to nursing, I would probably already have my BSN. I am a bad person for not working at the moment according to some people, or I am a bad mother if I do according to others. You can never make everyone happy.
      If I don't make a certain decision right now, then everyone will hold it against me. But if I do then someone else will hold it against me. No matter what, someone gets hurt. Myself included. Why is it so hard for me to ignore what others want and do what I want? To do what I feel in my heart and soul?
      The only thing I know for sure, is no matter what I do in life, my kids will be happy and well taken care of, and love me regardless. Because my decisions do not affect my parenting in any way. They love me for me, and are not judgmental. Why can't everyone have the loving mind of a child? <3