Help!

     I have always felt the need to help others. I am a very empathetic person, and can feel others' moods and pain. More so than most people. I can look around a room, and just feel people's emotions. Even as a small child I was that way. As far back as I can remember, I always wanted a career in the field of helping others. Nurse, teacher, or counselor. I never thought about a career that was selfish or just made money.
     I feel like people are put in my life for a reason. I know that may sound self-assured or big headed, but it is the truth. People have always come to me with their problems, and I have honestly never minded helping or listening. I have a big heart, and sometimes it gets trampled on, but I still can't help myself. I feel the need to be needed I guess.
      I have had friends come in and out of my life, and I never know why they leave so suddenly sometimes, but then I look back and realize they just needed me for a short time, and that hopefully I made a positive impact on their lives. That maybe they just needed for a time, and then it was done.
I have met some interesting people, and have some interesting chapters in my life because of this, so I won't complain. If I ever write a book it would be an interesting one.
     I have a certain friend that was brought back into my life unexpectedly, and at the moment I can't figure out the purpose other than we both need each other right now. I don't know if it is momentary or if it will be lasting, but I know in my soul that it is right. We are kindred spirits, and haven't been in each other's lives in awhile, or even spoke in years, but we have always felt a pull toward each other and could feel each other's pains.
     I am one of those people who like to have everything planned out in advance, so my life being at a standstill at the moment is driving me crazy. Not knowing which direction to take. I know there is a reason, and one day I will know why. So for now, I guess I hang on and take it one day at a time.