An Update

     So I have decided to do an update on my life at the moment. I know some people genuinely care, and others just want to be nosy and that is fine too I guess.
     I am kind of at a stand still at the moment. Most of you know that Jared has been pursuing the Air Force, he was selected to be a Rated officer and to go to Officer Training School. There has been a slight set back in that, and he will have to wait to go the Non-Rated route, which is okay because that was his preference in the beginning, and now he will be able to pursue a career more closely related to his own, so that was a blessing in disguise. If all goes well, this time next year he will be in. So for now, I sit and wait because I am unsure what that will mean, since while he is gone I want to be available to my children 24/7 so I am putting my career on hold for now. I have applied for a couple of jobs, but if I hear nothing back, I will just assume it is not meant to be for now, and I am in the best possible place I can be.
     As for Jared and me, we are still separated, but choosing to remain at home together with the kids. Most people don't understand this, they think it is weird, or confusing. But for us it is not. He is an awesome daddy, so why wouldn't I want him there for the kids? We don't fight, and we are both laid back people. I have forgiven him for the past, and moved on. I am less angry now. He is still my best friend, and we have fun together. Who wouldn't want to live with their best friend? Yes, I have guy friends, but we all hang out together, so whatever you assume in your mind, isn't always the case. To me, men have always been easier to get along with. But whatever preconceived notions you have, get them out of your head. I have heard some rumors about me, but I have never been the type to sleep around. I can count the guys I have been with in my life on two fingers. There was a third, but I don't count him because it wasn't by choice. So there you go. Maybe a bit TMI, but I guess it needed to be said to clear up some of the things I have heard about me. I can't say that for most people nowadays. But I am not that type of girl. So just because I have male friends, and not everyone agrees with that since I am "married", please take a look at yourself before you judge me.
      An update on my kids: Emma Belle is doing excellent in school, and she is such a funny little kid. She never ceases to amaze me with her wisdom and ability to rationalize things. Honestly, she is more wise than most adults I know. Jackson is my sweet, sensitive baby boy. He just turned six, and I can't believe it. He is struggling some in school with his reading and spelling. He is a math wiz, but now I have to make the hard decision on whether to hold him back a year, because he is lagging behind in the other areas. I just don't want to make the wrong one. This is one of those decisions that parents dread making.  I have worked so hard with him, and he just can't seem to catch on, so I am also wondering if he has something else going on. He memorizes the books so he seems to be reading, but if I hand him a new book, no matter how many times we have gone over a word, he struggles. My sweet boy. Livia is such a smart cutie. She is using words like disgusting, and talking in complete sentences now. She is good at everything she does. She can dance, sing, and throw and catch a ball already. I'm excited to see what she will do with her life. She makes everyone fall in love with her. She is a stubborn mess though. Right now we are working on potty training. She does it when she wants to. Not when I want her to. If we are in a public place, she will use the potty, but not at home. And I refuse to run her to a convenience store every time she needs to potty. Haha. So I guess she will do it in her own time.
      So that's what has been going on in my life as of late. It has been interesting to say the least. And I am pretty sure I could pull off my own reality show. But if you have a question, please come to me instead of fueling the rumor mill (which I know is hard in this small town area), but I am an open book, and a very honest person. And I think I am a good person. I try to be nice to everyone, and I have friends from all walks of life. Not everyone agrees, but that is okay. I am happy, and my children are happy, and that is really all that matters to me.